Monday, April 19, 2010

It's been a difficult day. I'm fighting all kinds of emotions and quite frankly just plain sin: depression, anxiety, resentment, playing the victim. But literally at the end of the day, I can say that I have peace. I have always found comfort in God's sovereignty in all things. He loves me and my sweet Hannah and has a plan that as it is worked out, we won't understand everything that He is doing; but, when we are looking backward, we will see clearly. The Bible says that now we see through the window darkly, but one day we will see clearly. I am thankful that He isn't allowing us to hold on too tightly to this world. I'm still far from where Paul was...but by God's grace I will progressively look heavenward for my happiness and Hannah's fully glorified body and soul.


  1. Dear sister in Christ, let the Holy Spirit fight for you. Rest in the arms that never fail. Even when we don't know why, or can't see the plan or God's hand we must trust His heart. He loves your dear family so much. When we get down in the trenches where you are we remember a verse God brought to mind after both our children were dx. with autism. Isa 54:17 Your children shall be taught by the LOrd and great shall be the peace of your children." Blessings on you! and remember even when we're so tired we let go, God never does!! Love, Marlo (one of your mom's Bible study friend)